Well its been a long time since I last posted and my english further degraded but you know what here i am now. I was thinking that bloging was like an online journal whitch on sure alot of people already knew, with the exception of me of course. So yeah.. like a journal but it never goes away, never gets lost...uhh well i suppose it could be lost but not in the same way i suppose. It doesnt get detroyed....delete.....oh i know it never burns that works right? but most of all the pasage of time has no effect, So no matter what it would be like you just wrote it yesterday. I tend to go off topic and start writing about other things and how i feel and stuff probably because of school and their stupid long essays you just gotta learn to BS that shit or else its never gon be like 4000 words cuz thats BS all in its own but lets get back to the main event.
So i was saying how this can serve as my journal so why not write down some important things not just the everyday rable that goes on.When i look back on this i want to remember that i was a young man once blinded by love and wanted nothing else but to see the one he loved smile and what a wonderful smile that was. You see it had come to my attention that i haven't written about her and i thought that was weird. I had posted about other bullshit on here before so why haven't i felt the urge to write about her? well the answer was clear i just don't write very often and this blogging thing isn't my style but i should at the very least add this little bit to my life. so when i do feel the need to look back it will be here for me. and may i always look back. well the only person who knows about this blog already knows what there is to know but yea. Its already been a year since i told the her i loved her, a year i spent every moment loving her.I feel as if i love her more now then ever and i feel she loves me more now than ever. Im sure i will go on my life with these feeling with me no matter what happens int he future. I remember holding her hand for the first time =] it was the most wonderful feeling i had felt up to that point in my life. I never wanted it to end i thought to myself and if i could i would repeat that day a thousand times over. And our first kiss i was so nervous i couldn't pull it off during our date but at the end of the day when i walked her home she took the time to give me another opportunity. I still remember it i didn't rly know what to do and i didn't rly do anything but i remember it felt rly nice and something i wasn't expecting. well i guess ill end this at the beginning of my love.
I feel as if i have so much to write about but about what im not sure. so ill just leave it at that.
PS: damn this is kinda long eh lol
oh and "shit,fuck,fag" for the little ones xD
